Pity Party (Semi) Over

I just have to say that I have the most wonderful friends.  You guys have really been such great pillars of strength for me and have had such good words of advice.  This is truly the hardest situation ever, but I really am trying to find all of the things that are good.  I have a smart, healthy, amazing daughter who makes me smile everyday.  I have a husband that is wonderful to me and a fantastic dad.  My son hasn't been home with me yet, but I know that he will-eventually-be home and that's definitely way better than never having him come home.  Did I mention he's also amazing.  He's growing so fast already.  However, if I have one more person ask me how early he was-I'm going to put a neon sign in his room that says "do I look like a premie?" (we have learned that nearly all babies in the NICU are premies, so that's what people assume).  In other words, he's growing weight and length wise like crazy-even though he's just getting nutrition through his blood and not even eating yet!  We're taking some of his clothes up for him to start wearing-otherwise, he'll be too big when he gets home for a lot of the clothes!  Last night, he got a swing put in his room and absolutely loves to swing!!  Please, don't get me wrong-I am so very thankful to have Spencer still with us considering all he has over come-it's just so hard not to wish things were different.  Spencer may be destined for something special and this is just part of the plan.  Artie and I are forever changed.  We owe so much to the doctors and nurses that have kept him with us.  We will become blood donors-I'm sad to say we weren't already donors-because someone else's donation saved Spencer's life.  We are also going to donate our baby stuff to the NICU because they have so many babies that need things like clothes and swings-stuff that Spencer has gotten.  I do have so much to be grateful for and I thank my friends for helping me see that:)

Thank you so much to my wonderful SMC girls-for everything!  We also couldn't get through this without our family doing what they can to help-watching Avery so Artie and I can be at the hospital together, mowing our yard, taking care of the dogs, and all of the other offers.  

Updates will come as we know anything different.  He is having blood tests less-so that's good-and, his bilirubin went down to 0.6!!  Thank you!